I am weary, and I a stranger,
Lead me to the land of angels.
Be my eyes in time of darkness,
Be my shield against host of faery,
Be my wings till I find my home.
Taken from Stone Maiden
by Susan King
Monday, January 31, 2005
Hmm, just got back my music commentary..I find it very irritating that I don't do it detailed enough, then I get a D+. So gross. It's irritating because somehow I THINK I can do it( ok, a very big THINK there, considering I never got higher than C?) but I just am not hardworking enough to do it more in detail. Hmm, something I should work to, I guess. It seems very, very distant how I am going to do well for my JCT, let's not even talk about As first. Ha.
So perhaps I'm not in a Chinese New Year mood yet...somehow I feel very sad about that D+. UGH. Think I shall go revise this week. Or something. Sigh, again, the problem with music is that you either have it or you don't.
And I don't.
Thursday, January 27, 2005
Tired. Don't feel communicative.
Monday, January 24, 2005
ARGH...econs test tomorrow...I haven't studied..was reading the whole afternoon.
I will die for geography.
It IS possible to write a GP essay knowing absolutely nothing at all and do well. HA.
I am really QUITE disilluioned about form teachers. SIGH. It's quite saddening. And it makes me feel very, very, useless and misunderstood.
Saturday, January 22, 2005
Happy belated Hari Raya Haji....600 over sheep will die today...yes, because the shipment couldn't get in yesterday...haha. Went to buy yu sheng, it's time to get fat! Haha...but I always do...
Erhu lesson today, I think I WILL REALLY START practising. I mean, I feel so guilty when he tries to find something nice to say about me...haha
Pink is not a nice colour. Especially when I wear it.
Wednesday, January 19, 2005
Feeling A BIT slack...ok, now that I wrote that, I think I shall go practise some erhu or do some geog or something........guilty. Hmm, went to CO erhu today..so fun! I always feel that it's so much easier to relate to strings...ok...bowed strings
Today, I successfully made an envelope by myself...haha
Sometimes, I think it's not that Zheng An by himself is disgusting, I think it's because he's so...crude. Like...when you swear....you don't...just use it like it's a normal word, at least have the courtesy to look guilty or something? I don't know....
And, it's not exactly my duty to bring your dictionary for you.
Monday, January 17, 2005
Hmm, rainy day today. I like this kind of weather, but if you think about it, it actually is kind of...foreboding. Haha, I'm being too superstitous here. Today's been agreat day so far, even though it's only 11.25 in the morning..it's been nice!
Haven;t been blogging for quite long, but I never do over the weekend anyway, so I guess it's quite normal. This week's short, only four days! And let's hope it's shorter in another sense too...who says the calender goes according to the number of days in it?
Friday, January 14, 2005
Yay! End of the week...I must admit my mood is always blackest mid-week. Very tired today, for some reason. I wonder why I keep falling asleep this week. Haha, we were counting, and we have come to the conclusion that there has been no lesson that I have NOT fallen asleep in before. Hope the teachers don't notice. Fell asleep on the bus today...missed the stop..sigh.
Haha, I shall practise violin! Got a lot of motivation....
Maybe I'm going into the erhu section for CO. Hmm, they all look so...weird.
I'm glad tomorrow's saturday!!
Wednesday, January 12, 2005
Hmm, wednesday tonight....just trying to do some GP research..I think since I dropped one subject, and it happens to be the one that gives me the most homework, I shall spend the time I used to spend on tutorials to read other stuff and see if it helps for my other subjects.
CO today...seriously they have too many players. I think they won't need us anymore, but let's see how. If they need us, we'll be there...haha....
Chamber was so fun!!! I never knew how much I missed it, the indescribable feeling you get when you can fit in with every one else, or you catch that silly syncopated rhythm and the conductor smiles, or the wonderful sound of every one ending together. Guess if I have a passion, it's for chamber. It would be wonderful to spend my life playing in an orchestra...but...not all dreams can be fufilled..haha.
Today was a long day, but....15 minutes at night recharges me for tomorrow!
Monday, January 10, 2005
I really AM SO FRUSTRATED.
Work may be a good outlet, when no one cares to listen to you.
Sunday, January 09, 2005
Just finished composition. Haha, realised that I never have time to blog on Saturdays. I guess I should go and sleep, but really, it doesn't matter if I sleep a few minutes later, yes?
Spent quite a long time listening to Huimin moan about chamber, and discussing other stuff...quite fun. Wonder how we never got sick of each other...saw each other in class every day...wrote such long letters to each other, AND called each other to talk...haha. But it was enjoyable.
Went to get new year clothes today..extremely expensive. And not at all flattering, if you know what I mean.
Yuck, there's a recital in March, have to start preparing...I shall try to practise.
Today was a complete day...and I'm content. Extremely content.
Friday, January 07, 2005
I think it's not good to relax too much...you start to need more sleep. Well, no worries, now with chamber back in action, I"m so estatic!!!, we'll have a lot to do now! It's so fun!!!!
Erhu lesson...progressing....I guess.
Went back to primary school....hmm, working as an admin person there gives you $1,200 per month. Cool. Shall try to apply for that after As. But first....gotta start mugging. Next week is tight.
Thursday, January 06, 2005
I'm tired today. Just back from violin lesson...couldn't concentrate. But, I must try....need to start homework tonight.
PDP exhibition was very inspiring today..there ARE a lot of people who want to join chamber! And we may even set up a class....whatever happens, it's comforting to know that Emily will always be around to help. She is such a nice person. It was fun making the bookmarks with huimin..haha, I do like treble clefs.
Funny to think....you may not be the only person wearing rose tinted glasses when you look at me. Hmmm.
Wednesday, January 05, 2005
I think it really isn't a good idea to slack so much, I MUST really get started. I know I can't rush and do well at the last minute, so I MUST. But tomorrow have to practise double bass...haha, can you believe that I, the person who learnt double bass for like...two months?, am going to play for SYF and concert? HAHAHA..they must be mad. But I guess I will have to work for it, don't disappoint them...
This is perhaps too early to think about, but....should I consider studying overseas? It's confusing...
Tuesday, January 04, 2005
Another slack day...argh, can't take it, too slack! But some improvement...and I must keep to my resolution not to go out if I don't feel like it. If I'm boring I guess you'll just have to take it, I don't want to compromise again.
Somebody's been really sweet and thoughtful today! I'm happy..and touched!
Monday, January 03, 2005
Sick yesterday...perhaps I too can get sick under the rain, if I do it for very prolonged periods of time. But it was for a worthwhile cause, and perhaps, with time, it'll all be back to normal again.
First day of school today...I went to school for NO LESSONS AT ALL. I dropped Maths, you see. And our new CT will probably be Francis Tong...eeee. Discipline Master. And I was thinking of breaking the rule about bracelets this year...haha.
Slack, slack. As if it was the end of school again. IP students are so cute!
Saturday, January 01, 2005
Hello, hello. Happy new year! I'm writing this under the pressure of Huimin, just to show her that I DO blog...haha.
Today was a nice day on the whole, went for piano lesson - my piano teacher is a health food fanatic! Hopefully she doesn't influence my mother that much...I hate beans. Must practise, my fingers are getting stiff again...
Haha, finally bought my CD and new diary for this year, hopefully I can keep it up. I'm definitely more conscientious there than here....
Met Huimin, Margaret and Xuhua at East Coast today..rainy day, but we had fun! Hmm, maybe I really really should go learn how to bike. Bet my bum will hurt tomorrow....
It's cold today. So rainy. It's weird how disasters all hit at once...People in Aceh are cold, injured and homeless..and no one knows if it's the end of the disasters yet....so depressing. Is it really a Happy New Year after all?
it's not the years in your life that count,
but the life in your years.
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And in the end,
On |ove`*
And now I will show you the most excellent way:
If I speak in tongues of men and of angels, but have not love,
I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal.
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