I am weary, and I a stranger,
Lead me to the land of angels.
Be my eyes in time of darkness,
Be my shield against host of faery,
Be my wings till I find my home.
Taken from Stone Maiden
by Susan King
Saturday, July 31, 2004
Hello.......haven't been writing for a long time, I only do this when I have time, see. I'm dying of exhaustion here, have been doing s for the past three days. Found out that I passed maths test! Not very well, and it was rather easy, but never mind.
TPJC guitar concert yesterday- it was actually quite fun, no idea why some people say they are that bad
Today went for SINDA talk, probably will start reading in 2 weeks time
Today was yet another day of , ok, yes, cloudy cloudy gazing...with a pretty embarrassing end to it. Er.....it was pretty bad.
Wednesday, July 28, 2004
Hello! I'm in such a good frame of mind today! I guess music can really help to change your mood.... Just back from piano lesson- Ravel is really nice! One day must go and listen to final fantasy soundtrack- everyone seems to be raving about it!
Maths test...........never mind.
IP open house..........play duet.....don't care
Follow me to the ends of the earth.........
Monday, July 26, 2004
Chamber. Its killing me.
Sunday, July 25, 2004
Slack....and marie is working hard...I really must start work tonight. As in, today I haven't done any work except PW, but that is not really counted...so never mind. I never thought I would fall head over heels in love with any chinese pop song, but I do! And it sounds wonderful!
PW was quite slack today too. Everyone was so tired we kept gossiping, I think we really work well, except that we have this really bad tendency to sidetrack. A lot.
Intervals...and I thought I was done with them. Now I have to learn them in CHINESE! Luckily they count them in semitones, but now I have to learn their names in chinese PLUS what is a sharp and a flat, and then must go on to triads and dominant sevenths.... IN CHINESE. GOSH.
Would they have augmented sixths? That would be funny!
Imagine if I had to do harmony in Chinese. DIE.
Friday, July 23, 2004
Hmm....Today was a nice day, I guess. I mean, it was. Let's start from the top.....
On the bus to school today, got squished between two, um, rather prosperous, people. One of them was this indian (timithi!) nurse, and the other was this TJ person. If I'm not wrong I think she's Megan 3, I think. That was a lot of "I think"s. Anyway, one of the minor things I have been wondering about today is - should fat people wear short skirts? And should other people be made to walk behind them up the overhead bridge? Interesting question to consider.... I mean, I guess some pervertic people would...but never mind. Was trying to answer that question, but got set back by so many others..."what is a short skirt?", " Is my skirt short?" and so on....
Today was quite slack, seems to pass in a daze, I only can remember that Chinese was full of copying answers, Buddhist songs, School anthems, falsettoes, and.....Planting rice. Sigh...
Sheesh, being moody is definitely not a good reason, ok?!
Wednesday, July 21, 2004
Sigh....sacrifice is character building and all that, but you really do have to draw a line somewhere. I mean, it's ok if what I'm sacrificing is just my time, and energy, but I draw the line at my violin. I know this is stupid, so I don't go advertising it all over the place, but I really do treat my violin as another human being. And now it's been disfigured. Ok, so it can be put back to normal ( most probably, I hope), but it's never going to trust me again! And it was my responsibility to look after it! It's been through so much with me, and I really do understand it( even more than the other violin), and now it's been defaced. It's so sad!!! I mean, all those concerts and competitions we've gone through together, me learning to play on it......
But that's not all. My faith in human character has really been badly shaken these two days. I guess I really must stop being so naive and trusting of everyone. How was I to know that she was going to do that, or be like that? It's really true you will never get to know a person properly, and sometimes the things you find out about them really hurt. I hate myself for being so obliging! What makes it worse, is that, now, having sacrificed my violin, which I really will never forgive myself for doing, it doesn't come to anything at all. She isn't going to perform.
I don't mind as long as what I sacrifice is mine, but my violin! I really do love it so very much, and now it's been hurt. I've given so much into this, but all I get out of this is even more hurt. Even when we get through this, with a sense of relief, this scar is still going to be there. The worst thing, is, what can I do? She already apologized, but it isn't going to make a difference. I'll never forgive myself for not taking care of my violin....I'm so sorry......I really am
Er...I hope I don't sound like the Mabel and her guitar episode. Ha. But if I do, I really sympathize with her...It really cuts like a knife.
Sigh.
Monday, July 19, 2004
Ok, it seems as if I'll be online for longer than I expected to be, so I'll elaborate ( anyway I've got the slip in front of me)
Maths: F
Econs: E
Geog: B
Music: E
GP : C6
Chinese : C5
And that's it. Don't say any more. Sometimes, the impact is worse when you DON"T get scolded. I think it's called reverse physcology, but it works. Coupled with peer pressure....Ok, I will get work done tonight. Soon.
Busking tomorrow. Sigh, as if anyone is going to listen. After all, there really isn't much point practising considering that no one will be able to hear us, as usual.
I feel STUPID.
GUILT. What more can I say?
Friday, July 16, 2004
Darn.....I'm sick. Wrong timing AGAIN. Why do I always fall sick at the wrong times? Anyway, thank goodness this horrible, horrible, week is over. PLEASE let me recover by tommorrow...
It's such a relief to hear someone else who can play at the same standard as huimin and me. It really makes me feel better....And I realise music isn't something you can just give up and be done with. Today Junxin came back to play, and she said she misses playing together, looking at scores.....And Shiyun too. Well, I'm fortunate. How do some people go through life without KNOWING it?!
Thursday, July 15, 2004
It's over! And good riddance- I just know I'm going to fail but there's nothing I can do now, so never mind. Sigh, I always seem to cross paths with Miss Tan whether I intend to or not. For the record, I've never wanted to cross paths with her before, so it's really amazing how much I can irritate her without trying.
I'm tired but I've got no time to sleep. Sob....
Tuesday, July 13, 2004
Ah. How. So many problems. I dont know where to start, so lets not. Hopefully, one day I can look back and find it funny. But now I dont.
Monday, July 12, 2004
OK, today I get back all my JCT results,
GP:FAIL
Chinese:Pass
Geograhy:Pass
Music:Pass
Maths:FAIL
Econs:FAIL
So you see, it's not as if I can spend much time slacking here any more. It's really bad.
I got back my psychometric profile today. It's seems like I'm quite a extreme person. For example, I am totally not conscientious. This is really against what all my teachers have been saying about me all these years.... And I am quiet, so that's correct, I guess.
PW is stressing me out. Is km and Shirely EVER going to come?!
Sunday, July 11, 2004
Ok, it's exactly 4 days to my piano exam. I really hope I can get through this week without breaking down. There's chinese oral, which is just as bad. Sigh. And I'm going to get back everything tomorrow, so I can finally count that I failed almost everything. I haven't done so much homework.
Today, I discovered that you can place your order at Sakae Sushi through the computer!
So interesting, and I think I am moderately used to Japanese food. Hmm, but I don't think I would want to visit there. Perhaps New Zealand?
Saturday, July 10, 2004
SNYO concert today, as well as Chinese listening. I was so tired after the concert last night..Yawn. The esplanade staff are truly efficient, but they exude this chilliness and snootiness that totally puts you off. I realise I'm not good at carrying flowers. A sunflower drops one petal every half hour I carry it. And it's not on purpose! At least, when I handed it over, it wasn't in the state of Huimin's daises..haha...that was funny..but red and yellow are nice colours!
Wednesday, July 07, 2004
Ok, I realised that was a bit short. But what can I say? After all, this might not be the only F I'm getting. Sigh...I feel so stupid....as in, you know, really DUMB.
I am reminded once again that I probably WILL be having tea with the principal. Sigh. Well, I supposed I deserved an F. Oh Shit.
Sunday, July 04, 2004
Class outing today. Fun, really. My feet hurt. I think I walked too much. Ouch.
Saturday, July 03, 2004
More irritation.
Spite. Oh, and frustration. It's amazing what you can discover in yourself.
Friday, July 02, 2004
Today was a pretty fun day...I mean, I don't know how music will turn out but it doesn't matter, who cares? I really deserved to eat all the ice cream I did today, I ran in full school uniform! Sigh, it was really hot and I'm really out of practice. I guess I should really learn how to ride a bike to end all these traumatising experiences with Huimin, but it was fun, I guess. We realised we both don't have the stamina to go shopping properly, which is quite sad. Well, at least I never dragged a guy along to a hair accessory shop before....
it's not the years in your life that count,
but the life in your years.
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And in the end,
On |ove`*
And now I will show you the most excellent way:
If I speak in tongues of men and of angels, but have not love,
I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal.
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