I am weary, and I a stranger,
Lead me to the land of angels.
Be my eyes in time of darkness,
Be my shield against host of faery,
Be my wings till I find my home.
Taken from Stone Maiden
by Susan King
Sunday, May 30, 2004
Today's been a really rainy day. One bad thing about wearing pants in the rain is that it sticks to you, and it gets really clingy when you move out of the rain. I've got a stupid cold now. And the umbrella...a bit lonely, I guess. But who knows?
Chamber camp tommorrow. I really hate the thought that i might have to go and learn.....THE GUITAR. UGH.
Saturday, May 29, 2004
Tired...This seems to be normal nowadays. The only pitiful consolation I have is that I get double eyelids on both sides, which helps a bit...Today had to perform for IP open house, the problem being that no one ever takes chamber seriously. I mean, when have you seen a chamber group being listened to outside a concert hall? They are always found at cafes, weddings, you get the point. Argh, I still haven't started work.
Friday, May 28, 2004
I'm tired. Chamber is very depressing, really. It's just too depressing for words. Perhaps its time to let go..
Econs..I'm sorry. I really didn't know.
And one censored afternoon here.
Thursday, May 27, 2004
I'm a patient person. Or, I will be.
Last minute stuff....Why does everyone like to change plans suddenly? Must be the weather..
Wednesday, May 26, 2004
Chamber is so depressing. Ever heard of something called the vicious cycle? It's something from Human Geog, lets hope I will learn it before the JCT. Sports carnival today. Spent most of the day with Huimin, biggest joke of the day was the fishtank, amongst others...Somehow I don't feel guilty that I skipped most of the school day, there's not much point in it, somehow...what do I have to stay back in school for?
It's not exactly been the happiest 1/1/2 weeks of my life. And it's not as if it is going to get any better.
Thank goodness I found the god-(censored) donation card. Idiotic piece of card.
Tuesday, May 25, 2004
Ok, so I finally got sick today. I think I have slept like 1/2 of the day away. It's very restful, I feel totally detached from school today.The other half I spent stoning, and I've finally caught up to tutorial 22! I'm still sleepy, it must be the effect of the fever medicine. One good thing is that I can catch up on all the sleep I've been missing the past week. But my nose just won't stop running. I think I'll skip dinner today...
Sunday, May 23, 2004
Homework wise, today has got to be the most fulfilling day of the year. Although I haven't completed my maths tutorials or the e-test, want to do it mow but shall procrastinate till later..as usual..Today, I have decided to flunk the coming econs test, lets see if zero is hard to get after all. And I'm still tired. Perhaps I'll become so tired that I won't feel tired any more. Ah ha. See, I can't think straight any more...
Really inspired to practise for chamber concert. Sometimes, you just need something really bad to wake you up. Other than that, I really am tired today. Finished one mep essay, got 1 more, 1 maths tutorial and 1 GP compre to finish by monday. Oh dear. I don't like weekends, I seem to work more than relax more. I'm tired. I really am.
Friday, May 21, 2004
Chamber people suddenly seem very enthusiastic today. Perhaps it's because of the pep talk. Though we left school so late, I think this is one of the best practices we have had.
Sometimes, people can be so sweet you can't help feeling happy!
Thursday, May 20, 2004
Oh dear. I just realised that the concert is in fifteen days and we are totally unprepared. Uh oh. It sounds like shit. I really am going to work hard for it. Oh dear. It's really bad when even your senoir who has nothing against you, or even your conductor tells you you suck. Oh dear.
Wednesday, May 19, 2004
Finally! The college anthem is done! Decided to let my work take a back seat at the moment, really must finish it.
Huimin, thank you very much. You have made two people very happy today. Isn't it weird you only took such a short time to solve it?
Tuesday, May 18, 2004
I know why we sucked at choir concert. Because the band just had to play easy notes that sounded nice, or just the beautiful melody. While we had to play all that crap. I'm sick of apologising for my pdp. We aren't that bad actually. I totally refuse to apologise any more.
Other than that, all i can say is I've never felt like crying so much for a very long time.
Monday, May 17, 2004
Life doesn't suck. I do. And I don't like that.
Sunday, May 16, 2004
Choir concert was really quite enjoyable, surprising. The big highlight of the day,for me at least, was the big tub of ice cream that Esther and Yunkuan bought and shared with me and Huimin. Greedy! Esther got this big bouquet of flowers, which makes me wonder...coupled with all the teasing Amy and Rebecca have been giving her...Hmm.PW meeting today. Exhausting. And I guess it's more or less finalised except for both of us. It's not as if even I believe myself sometimes. One of these days, must learn to apply make up properly. It's quite demoralising not to be able to use it properly, when everyone else can......
Friday, May 14, 2004
Hmm, I seem to be coming online more and more. And i thought the days left to JCT and online time ought to have a direct relationship. But who cares. My fingers HURT.Been practising so much these few days. All for the sake of the stupid choir, who doesn't appreciate. Listening compre tomorrow. Ah. That one can fail.
Thursday, May 13, 2004
Busy, busy. Stayed back to practise violin with Huimin and Esther after choir. Its so sad that the choir and band think we are so bad. Ok, I know we are, but that song is really horrible. Practising piano faithfully.
Wednesday, May 12, 2004
Tired. I have no idea why. I already get more sleep than most people in class. Chamber is sad. We don't look like we can make it in time for the concert. Ok, must finish up my coffee and go and start work. Maths tutorial! MEP essay! RECITAL!!!! And there's chinese oral tomorrow. And full dress choir rehersal. I think I must be getting boring. I don't seem to find anything else other than work important at the moment.
Tuesday, May 11, 2004
If anything can sound pretty, the magnificat piece does! it's so interesting, and relieving to play in an orchestra, or at least something without strings only. At least there is always something else doubling the strings. Argh, today was so tired that was completely stoned in maths class. Even my maths teacher said: michelle is extra slow today. And he is usually so blur. Ate too much cake, very sweet....
Monday, May 10, 2004
I must be mad. Got my JCT schedule today. I always take it as a signal to start working REALLY HARD. It's eleven pm and I'm still online. TK concert was good, I guess, for what little talent they have. It's sad that string is such an individualistic cca. It really depends on starting from young. Shirley is so IRRITATING! ARGH!
Sunday, May 09, 2004
Today was slack! Happy mother's day! I do like flowers, you know. They are so pretty! I must start work now. Just grabbing some research for PW so that i won't feel guilty. Went to buy a black shirt and pants. I look...black. Duh. Ok, must go and start work. Won't come back before eight next week, and its the second last week of term........Hell is coming.
Basically, all I have to say today has to be censored. But choir practice with chamber was fun! It's so interesting to be playing as an orchestra. For one thing, the composer always gets either the winds or the piano or the voice to double, so that means we don't have to work so hard. Except for this portion where it's so obvious we are missing - and it was the hardest part too. Next week is daily practices, so I can't go out...sigh....
Friday, May 07, 2004
Slack......... No chinese and GP today, which meant we had three free periods, not including lunch and the other free period I normally have. I spent all the time in the library sleeping, which means I got really bad hand cramps again. Had to move around like a zombie for a while after that, with my hands stuck out stiff in front of me. I must start work soon. Haha, it just proves how much determination I have when I keep having to say that - it means that I never start work. Must go and practise piano now. Tommorrow is yet another tiring day. Why is it that I feel just as sleepy as if I didn't sleep for 2 periods in the library?
Thursday, May 06, 2004
Aha, I'm back. Thanks to huimin's extra long blog today. What is this Singaporean obession with acroynms? Liew Huimin, you better tell me what B.C means soon. What ?! Haha, found out that no chamber on saturday morning, and the conductor will not be there in the afternoon, which means I can escape and go out earlier.........
If everyone said what they wanted to, they just wouldn't be them. But sometimes you wish they would hurry up.
Monday, May 03, 2004
Yup, as you can see, I've kind of lost interest in my blog. Must try and regain some enthusiasm in writing it. PW sucks. It really does. What kind of idiot measures your leadership skills through pieces of paper? Was late for swimming this morning. Ah well. It's really been a puzzling day today.
Saturday, May 01, 2004
HOT! The sun is really burning today. I am losing interest in my blog, might stop blogging soon when the motivation gives out.
it's not the years in your life that count,
but the life in your years.
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And in the end,
On |ove`*
And now I will show you the most excellent way:
If I speak in tongues of men and of angels, but have not love,
I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal.
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