I am weary, and I a stranger,
Lead me to the land of angels.
Be my eyes in time of darkness,
Be my shield against host of faery,
Be my wings till I find my home.
Taken from Stone Maiden
by Susan King
Thursday, April 29, 2004
Home early today! This is the earliest for the first time in this YEAR. Really tired, though. Going to catch up on my sleep in an afternoon nap. Frankly speaking, I rather not be at home now, but somewhere else........ Ah well.
Wednesday, April 28, 2004
Tired. Really tired. Chamber today. Just found out we are playing for choir concert. No comments. Should I go to school tommorrow? Must start mugging soon. Tommorrow?
Tuesday, April 27, 2004
I FAILED GP. In my whole LIFE I have NEVER FAILED GP. I FAILED GP.
I FEEL REALLY DISGUSTED WITH MYSELF.
I FAILED GP.
Monday, April 26, 2004
Interview for Scholarship Prepartory Programme tommorrow. Just found out it's going to be about current affairs. Huh. Never liked those. Don't want the silly thing anyway - why must they give me additional stress by putting me in a group interview? Then everyone can see me and my ignorance. It's raining tonight. Good. Matches my mood. Currently trying to stuff as much information about current events as I can into my head. Not that it's working, really. Distance is an important factor, you know. It really is.
Sunday, April 25, 2004
This is an interesting quote from Sam's blog - "Nothing could be more fascinating than the fact that no matter how hard you study for an Economics test, you always end up failing." How true! And there's another one somewhere really long ago about only hoping to pass the square root of failing - and sometimes I don't even get that.
The weather is really bad. One good thing is that my room seems to be able to catch the slightest bit of wind there is (thank goodness my mother wasn't home this afternoon!) I'm feeling, basically, very sian. Made notes for all of econs already, if I ever drop anything, it's going to face tough competition from maths, which, needless to say, I am also going to fail. How ever to not be retained at the end of the year?
Yup, it's 4.15 in the afternoon, and the whole day has basically been very.....sian.
Saturday, April 24, 2004
Wow. Everyone's mugging really hard now - there's no one online! I feel really guilty being here. Sheesh. Piano is one of the tought things in life I have to go through. Sigh. I feel really bad relaxing here. Thanks, Sam, for calling about GP homework and making me feel even worse, because, of course I haven't done it. Fact is, I don't ever do homework? Why do people always think I do?
Friday, April 23, 2004
Hmm, I'm free today, so let's try to write a insightful, meaningful, altogether wonderful blog today. Yeah right. Who am I kidding?
First thing in the morning - got stressed out by Zhi Ying because she got the pink form from the general office and I hadn't. This is when friendship just pops out when you least expect it - Huimin volunteered to go to the general office with me straight after assembly. If you are reading this, thank you! Although I had to follow you to the toilet after that.....
Maths test. Actually right, I knew I was going to fail from the start, so it didn't have quite a great impact on me. Anyway, everyone says that they are going to fail, but then again everyone always passes. So lets leave it at that.
Find civics tutor to sign form. Bad move to help melissa ask her to look for another teacher. Got scolded for asking "Can you" instead of 'May you". Sometimes, I think my civics tutor is very messed up. Anyway.
Scholarship interview. Thank goodness (censored..........) When it was my turn, it was quite ok actually. Quite a fun experience, but I wouldn't like to repeat it.
And now, dinner. I think I shall work hard tonight, since Sunday (censored.........)
Good night!
Thursday, April 22, 2004
Tired.........Finally finished studying for Maths test! Don't know why I'm so bothered by it. Went out today. Even more tired............Basically the only two things on my mind are 1) I'm tired. 2) Shit. Got maths test tommorrow. The stupid thing is that the most important thing I have tomorrow, the scholarship interview, just doesn't seem to be that monumental. Dumb right?
Wednesday, April 21, 2004
Going out tommorrow! Sometimes I wonder........ But never mind. I'm leaving it at that. Maths test!!!!! I finished making cookies, but I haven't started on Sigma. Argh..........
Tuesday, April 20, 2004
Sigh, everyone likes to give me heart attacks, right? First the nonsense over the subject combinations, and now over the videotape. They told me they lost it. Sheesh. Then, after two totally depressing hours, they called again to say "oh, we found it." Violin lesson was ok lah. I realise that perhaps I've been too obliging after all. The problem is, no one likes to get stepped on too much, yes?
Monday, April 19, 2004
HOT............. Today, we had to follow friday's timetable. Yes, everyone gets to go home early except us, because we end at FIVE THIRTY. We have double group PE this week! I don't like sleeveless shirts, they are so...exposed. Shan't go into details here. Everybody was so gloomy in class today. Zhiying, Chong Wu, Sam.... Had class photo taking. Miss Tan flipped because no one smiled back at her when she smiled at us. Huh. WHY?!
Sunday, April 18, 2004
Haha...today was another day of stuffing myself with food. Went to do PW at esplanade, we seriously are focused. I suppose this is good. Ate sushi for dinner. It's such an interesting idea to have food moving instead of you. Other than that, I'm damn inrritated. Again. But I can't say why.
Saturday, April 17, 2004
Another tiring Saturday, but this time, such a happy one compared to last week! Though I'm getting impatient, really. Bravery is really necessary sometimes, I guess. Got a bad craving for chocolate today, so I really went and bought this really thick bar of pure Cadbury's milk chocolate. If I fall sick soon, it's going to be obviously my fault. Huimin says everyone likes to write long blogs. So shall I, for today.
In the morning, had CCA. There are only 13 people in Chamber. Thank God there's a cellist now, but the violist seems to have been frightened away. The air con was cool today. The weather's been really horrible these days. HOT. Huimin has had yet another encounter with birdshit. She really is paranoid!
Piano in the afternoon. Couldn't be bothered to set off early, reached there half an hour late. Unrepentant. Confessed about (censored.........)
And it's night now. Just finished a really big bar of chocolate. and (censored........)
Good night!
Friday, April 16, 2004
Sports day today! Gamma house, finally, wins first! Today as a sports offical was slack. Hung around the place till it was time for duty - prize presentations. That meant that most of the sports day was free for me. The weather was really bad. Got squashed by the opening doors of the bus today. Ouch. Have to start doing PW.....
Thursday, April 15, 2004
Econs test....Sigh... cannot make it. How? I really think I better get down to work properly. Sports Day tommorrow, finally a day of freedom in this whole week. How to run in the 2 pm sun?
Wednesday, April 14, 2004
Went to see the Plain English speaking competition today. Boring, till the impromptu round came. It's so funny to see people speechless on stage! Got the College Anthem score already. Die ah. So many instruments playing together. Even got harp. I realise I am not speaking in proper sentences. I must try to do that, even in a blog. All these shortforms and slangs in sms-es are driving my grammar down the drain.
Tuesday, April 13, 2004
Violin today. Not bad, I still sound quite alright. Nothing else much happened. I'm really stoned. Where did all the adrenalin go?
Monday, April 12, 2004
Too tired. Eyes aching. Haven't studied econs DIE.
Sunday, April 11, 2004
At the moment, I'm still totally estatic! It's so weird that your mood can change in the space of less than a minute. Bought a new cover for my phone today. It's blue, and the light of the phone is blue, so will it make me depressed? More likely not. Someone's been given the power to do that already. Tomb sweeping today. I really rather be placed in a cemetery than in a temple. Whoever heard of basement columbariums anyway? I have to do this early today - next up: 1 GP essay, 1 GP news article, drawing for Huimin. Sigh. But everyone works better happy, yes?
Saturday, April 10, 2004
I'm sad. That's it. 12 more hours. Piano today. Tired. Putting on weight. That's it.
Friday, April 09, 2004
Good friday today! Went to church. If I say the musical about Jesus was bad, I'd be lying really badly, so I won't. It's ok,really. But I would never think of converting. It's not really something I would want to do. Ever. You know something? I like myself today! :)
Thursday, April 08, 2004
Argh, so tired! Chinese tuition is one and a half hours of turning my brain to cheese. Not that it wasn't cheese in the first place, me having slept for one hour in the school library. Surprisingly, I slept really deeply. I have been inspired by Zhi Ying to go and learn the guitar. Perhaps at the end of this year or something, which adds it on to my everlasting hope of being able to ride a bike one day. Today was really slack! No geography because both teachers are on a field trip. Not that I really mind.....
Wednesday, April 07, 2004
Argh! I am so irritated! I cannot believe how irritated I am! Over the stupidest reason! I won't say it here, but I feel really stupid! Can't say more, I am going to burst soon! Sheesh!
Well. This isn't the first blog I have made, the first one ended with disastrous results I won't go into at this point in time. Maybe later. Not sure if I can blog everyday, I'm wiser now. I refuse to say that I shall.
Had to be a sports official for Sports Heats today. Did high jump with Zhi Ying. I went home at 7.40! Late, but I get an extra hour of CIP for that, so I guess it's worth it. So many girls would have killed to be there, Yazid was jumping. Zhi Ying was telling me about all the silly comments her friends made raving over his body. This sounds really gross. Let's stop here.
Had lunch with Huimin for the first time in three months today. Fun, really. But I have a feeling that it won't be the same as all those times in the TK canteen. Sigh. I really miss them.
Right, won't bother any more. Going to start work. All these late nights mugging are killing my complexion....
it's not the years in your life that count,
but the life in your years.
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And in the end,
On |ove`*
And now I will show you the most excellent way:
If I speak in tongues of men and of angels, but have not love,
I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal.
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